Amanda and the Hendersons

I recieved this card on our last Denver trip. Words to live by..... I have read it over and over..... and so, I wanted to share.

I have been hurting lately...in more ways than one.  The biggest sadness for me in recent days stems from a sense of guilt.  I am struggling to hold on to my big boy.  Paysen is so smart, but he still cannot understand the reasons for the life he has.  He doesn't get why he has to have so much pain. I feel like I am dancing in quick sand, sinking ever quickly....... Last week I dropped him off at preschool as I was leaving for Denver.  As I said goodbye to Paysen, I looked in his teary eyes and my heart sank.  I sat in the parking lot sobbing..... It is so unfair.....I say goodbye to him far too often.  Paysen is very angry, he is very sad.  He is showing me these feelings in outbursts....he just doesn't have the words to express his heart.  Paysen loves his little brother....so much.  He prays for him at every prayer...."God please heal my brother..."  It really is such a strange situation, its not the norm.  I have always had this guilt....trying to be a