Amanda and the Hendersons

My cell phone is full...full of pictures of this.... Countless times every day I find myself scrambling to find my phone to capture a moment when my camera is out of reach.....  There is always a kid doing something photo worthy ....but usually it is this little gal...because she is always.... always.... adorable....and ready to strike a pose. She is also a little bit feisty. I think she has learned that from her brothers.....   Paysen is always building something... Parklen is always learning a new trick.... There is so much to be captured around here. The last couple of days have been crazy. Three fevers, on three separate kids..... Three kids crammed into one doctors appointment..... and that was just Monday.... Follow with some test results on Parklen that brought my worst nightmare to the front of my mind..... and that was Tuesday... Wednesday had its valleys.... Today had some too.... And as I sit here, I keep trying to think about things ...

You know that feeling? The one that comes when you neglect doing something that you love?!? Like when it has been too long since my husband went fishing.... Or like too much time passing between baking sessions for my grandmother.... When Paysen hasn't drawn a picture for some time.... When Parklen hasn't talked about the Hulk.... Everyone has their something that gives them that feeling..... Today I was parked outside of the school waiting for my second grader and it hit me..... it hit hard.... It started in my gut and rose to my throat...... I was instantly filled to my brim with feelings..... and I thought.... "What am I going to do with all of these feelings?" and then I thought.... "Why have I not been writing?" and, although I already knew the answers to the questions....I forced myself to run through them one by one...... Mostly I have not been writing because I haven't felt  like it. I haven't felt like doing much..... ...