This post will, no doubt, be completely random. . . .as to match the randomness of my thoughts lately.
I have been thinking about things this week, things that are hard to think about. I try to stay away from the down thoughts. . . .try not to ask the dreaded question.. . . . . . Why?
Parklen and I have been in Denver this week......in the hospital since yesterday. He has been through so much in his 3 short years.....so much. I watch him struggle with different things in life, things that Paysen does with out a problem. I watch him go through days when he feels sick and does little more than lay around. I have seen him have days when he feels better and sucks every bit out of life.
I will never know why my baby is sick, I will never know why. But I do know that its probably better that I don't worry about why. All I can do is focus on my tasks.....love my family, take care of my children, make each of them feel special and important......and let others see that I love God. And that no matter what is put in my path, that I trust Him, even when I don't understand why.