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Today is day -5.
Today was rough.

There is five days left until transplant......
five days.....

The new med that they started today was hard....
We're talking, the nurse didn't hardly leave the room for the entire shift.....
He had ups and downs...
Mostly downs.....

There was a point today where Parklen's breathing caused enough alarm for the nurse to push the help button.  I watched as the entire floor worth of nurses and doctors ran down the hall towards my baby's room.

He was ok.

 But he scared us.

There was another point today where he was shaking horribly bad......
couldn't stop if he tried....

The doctors were close by for the entire day.
My stomach was in my throat for just as long....

Chemo.
Poison.

Paysen has lost his cool.
Today I watched as he tried to tackle the Chaplin.
Later, he layed down in the middle of the halway, refusing to walk...throwing a fit.
He is becoming more unlike himself every day.
He broke down and expressed his fear for his brother....
     "I dont want to see him sick anymore."
     "What if he never gets better?"
     "What if my bone marrow cannot fix him?"


I don't have much else to say....
mostly just that today will go down in the books as day -5......and also as a day I don't want to remember.

He isn't out of the woods yet.
This new drug runs again for the next two days.
He could still show some signs of distress yet this evening....

keep on praying....
Lift Parklen up.
Pray for his mama, who is growing so tired.

Pray for a miracle....
and for Parklen to surpass all expectations.
Pray for Paysen, who is too small to be so worried.....
Pray for Devan, who fights a hundred battles himself.......
Pray for a renewing of my strength.....and abounding grace to carry this load.....




Comments

  1. AnonymousOctober 24, 2013 at 9:53 PM

    Love from Saratoga

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  2. AnonymousOctober 24, 2013 at 10:09 PM

    I believe that God's word has POWER, and if you want you could speak these out loud over Parklen, either when he is asleep or awake. I am believing in a miracle. In healing. Here are the verses.

    Isaiah 41:10 "So do not fear, for I am with you; do not be dismayed, for I am your God. I will strengthen you and help you; I will uphold you with my righteous right hand."

    Isaiah 40: 28-31 "Do you not know? Have you not heard? The Lord is the everlasting God. The Creator of the ends of the earth. He will not grow tired or weary and his understanding no one can fathom. He gives strength to the weary and increases the power of the weak. Even youths grow tired and weary and young men stumble and fall; but those who hope in the Lord will renew their strength. They will soar on wings like eagles; they will run and not grow weary. They will walk and not be faint."

    Psalm 20 "May the Lord answer you when you are in distress; may the name of the God of Jacob protect you. May he send you help from the sanctuary and grant you support from Zion. May he remember all your sacrifices and accept your burnt offerings. May he give you the desire of your heart and make all your plans succeed. We will SHOUT for JOY when you are victorious. And will lift up our banners in the name of our God. May the Lord grant ALL your requests. Now I know that the Lord saves his anointed; he answers him from his holy heaven with the saving power of his right hand. Some trust in chariots and some in horses, but WE trust in the name of the Lord our God."

    Psalm 107:19-21 "Then they cried to the LORD in their trouble, and he saved them from their distress. He sent forth his word and healed them; he rescued them from the grave. Let them give thanks to the LORD for his unfailing love and his wonderful deeds for men."

    Psalm 30:2 "O LORD my God, I called to you for help and you healed me."

    Psalm 41:2-3 "The LORD will protect him and preserve his life; he will bless him in the land and not surrender him to the desire of his foes. The LORD will sustain him on his sickbed and restore him from his bed of illness."

    Isaiah 53:4-5 "Surely he took up our infirmities and carried our sorrows, yet we considered him stricken by God, smitten by him, and afflicted. But he was pierced for our transgressions, he was crushed for our iniquities; the punishment that brought us peace was upon him, and by his wounds we are healed."

    By His wounds Parklen is healed in the name of Jesus! I am claiming that for him in the name of Jesus every day!

    Psalm 91:14-16 " 'Because he loves me,' says the Lord, 'I will rescue him; I will protect him, for he acknowledges my name. He will call upon me, and I will answer him; I will be with him in trouble, I will deliver him and honor him. With long life will I satisfy him and show him my salvation."

    Dueteronomy 9:3 "But be assured today that the Lord your God is the one who goes across ahead of you like a devouring fire."

    I will be speaking these out loud for Parklen tomorrow. Believing in his healing power. Love to you, Parklen and family.

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  3. MaryOctober 25, 2013 at 12:22 AM

    Please know you are in our hearts and prayers daily. Praying especially for your during masses attended. You've got this because God has you! He has all of you! Praying you feel HIS peace!!! Praying for strength!!! God bless you!!! Gerise Vignaroli

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  4. AnonymousOctober 25, 2013 at 11:19 AM

    May God hold all of you close with His warm arms of love and give you peace.
    Focus on Jesus who looked past the cross to the joy that was set before Him (Hebrews 12:2-3)

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  5. AnonymousOctober 25, 2013 at 2:48 PM

    Praying for your "Miracle" and that God will replace all fear and exhaustion with his Joy.

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  6. AnonymousOctober 26, 2013 at 8:44 AM

    praise the Lord.;;;;; when we pray we believe we receive and LORD we give you all the glory and praise Parklen has receive his healing in the name of the LORD when two or more agree in the name of Jesus it is done.Thank you LORD

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